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Thursday, May 29, 2014

Miscarriage Care Packages (Angel Mommy Memory Boxes)

I am working on making a sample of the care packages I want to make for other Angel Mommy's. I want every package to be free, so that the Mother (and Father) get a memorial for their baby.

To read more about my endeavor click: Here!

At any stage of miscarriage the loss of a baby is a pain inconceivable and unimaginable! From the second that pregnancy test comes up positive and your heart stops and your head starts spinning, you love that baby. When your baby is so swiftly taken from you without a chance to even think, you are left gasping for air that never seems to come. You choke on overwhelming emotion. The world stops. Nothing anyone says can help, and how could it? Words don't bring your baby back. But, I sincerely feel that a gesture of kindness and support in knowing that you are not alone in your grief, and something to honor the all too short life of your Angel, can be the difference of falling into depression and finding help and hope.

What will be in the care packages (for mother's who put in a request for them)
~ A handmade scented candle (with the mothers favorite scent) colored pink,blue or white based on the knowledge of their Angels gender
~ A handmade aroma therapy soap (shaped as an Angels wing)
~ Body wash, lotion, sugar exfoliating scrub, bubble bath soap,and hygiene products
~ A plush teddy bear
~ A box of tissues
~ A handmade clay baked pendant with your Angels first initial and dates on it (or a peanut, or bean pendant if they didnt get a name with a second pendant with dates)
~ and an encouraging book about going through miscarriage grief
~ a polymer clay mother and angel sculpture

Packages for local hospitals
~ white candle with a calming scent
~ angel wing shaped soap
~ body wash, lotion, sugar scrub, hygiene products
~ teddy bear
~ tissues
~ a white angel wing pendant
~ overcoming miscarriage book
~ a peanut charm
~a mother and angel polymer clay sculpture

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

RAINBOW! Edited!!!

On Saturday May 24th and Sunday May 25th I got several positive pregnancy tests! Today May 28th 2014 I am 5 weeks, but unfortunately I think it may be ectopic. Or, I could have a UTI or a kidney infection. I will know more tomorrow hopefully but, for now I'm not going to worry too much and take some children's tylenol to relieve pain until we find out what's wrong. This is all much more bitter sweet than I thought it would be. I miss my baby Noah but I'm hoping and praying this little baby stays healthy and Noah watches over his little brother or sister :)
I won't know if it's ectopic or not for at least a week or more. But in other news, here's how I told hubby! :)
The morning of May 29th I had my blood drawn. Soon after I just felt off so I went to the E.Rwhere they compared that blood to the draw two days prior....like I had feared it went down from 331 to 137. For the last few days I have had heavy, heavy bleeding....I can only assume baby stopped growing because something was wrong between 4.5-5 weeks.

Here we go again.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Arguing is never a good thing!

Today Dh and I have had one of the biggest arguments in quiet some time. I cried for over a hour. I don't know how to get him to see my side, and on top of it I am anxious and moody because I feel like AF will be on time and I just want it to be over with.

I'm gonna try to get Dh to enjoy some sexy time tonight. I miss our spontaneity and I don't want him to think I'm boring.

Friday, May 16, 2014

3 Months...

Today was emotionally difficult for DH and I. It has been three months since we said goodbye to our angel Noah.
I just felt "off" DH tried to help me feel better but it wasn't helping. I miss my baby so much. I know DH does too but he doesn't like to show it as much. I wish he would i just don't know how to help him talk about it.
He was only just starting to get used to the idea we might carry to term when we lost Noah...he was so devastated :(
I'm going to try to get him into therapy with me to help recover.

In other news, I don't think I'm pregnant again but DH seems to think so. But, he's been wrong before.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Tribute to our angels

This post contains the names of Angels that passed far too soon. May contain images of these beautiful angels that some may find triggering.
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Parents Name: Kristen
Angels Name: Kaley Noel
EDD: 7.15.2014
Born into heaven: 2.20.2014

Parents Name: Elizabeth
Angel baby E.D.D 9.9.14
Born into heaven: 1.17.2014

Parents Name: Rose
Angels Name: Ashlyn
E.D.D: 7.12.14
Born into heaven: 3.26.2014

Parents Name: Beka
Angels Name: David
E.D.D: 8.3.14
Born into heaven: 4.18.2014

Happy Mother's Day!

To all you lovely ladies who support me and keep up on updates, happy mother's day! No matter the weather or how you woke up, say a prayer for your little one(s). Tell them you love them and keep a candle lit in memory. It will help.

Be kind to yourself.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Mothers Day..

*MAY BE TRIGGERING*
People often look at me oddly when I tell them I am a mother. It saddens me that myself as well as any other Angel Mommy don't get the same recognition just because our babies aren't living. We are still mommy's!
So I'm doing this post for all the mommy's I know! I care and I remember.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
I know you're angels are smiling down on you and watching over you.
As a tribute to our angels, I will be posting other mothers angels names/pictures and dates as well as the parents first names/initials. (Any images i receive for posting will have a custom watermark overlay to prevent stolen images! )

The following images are of our baby boy Noah, at the viewing before his cremation.